my one sister can sing pretty damn well
I can dance, more or less.
the little one can neither sing nor dance but she goes ahead and does both anyway. which is a very admirable thing dont you think. i think so and i think that maybe one day she might be able to do both, just because she's been practicing... ok so she fell down and broke her ankle last fall. that kind of scared her so now she is always looking at her feet... and fear is really not a good thing either when you are trying to dance or ANYTHING.

so anyway I took The Dog out after lunch for a walk. the streets all around the neighborhood were icy and slippery. we walked. we walked some more. trying to keep balance so as not to fall... then I almost lost my balance... tried for several seconds to keep standing... maybe half a minute... tried so hard my thighs hurt. then I thought to myself, what the heck, Id better fall than hurt myself trying to stay up! and it dawned on me that well you know what maybe falling isnt such a bad thing after all, actually it is the natural thing when the road is so icy and slippery. and it is maybe stupid to try so hard to stay up you lose so much energy while you can just fall and get up again which could actually take you less time, too, than trying to balance yourself on ice with all your strength and then fall anyway.

its not so bad to fall. it is not half as bad as one expects. it seems the fear is greater than the pain and falling can even be kinda fun.

so after this little piece of wisdom striked me I just got back home and took out my little sister and told her we were going out to have some fun... i mean it was a perfectly icy road and it wasnt really cold so there was my chance. little did she know what i had in mind. we just went out there and started running around and pushing each other and playing with the dog and just kept falling. of course it wasnt so easy to convince a teenager virgo to just let go and let fall. so first i explained she had to learn how to fall so that she wont break her ankle or anything else for that matter next time. that seemed to do the trick, you just have to give her a good reason and she will go along with pretty much anything because she trusts her oldest sister (ME!)

so there we continued... falling and getting up and falling again and all over. it was fun. yes we got our butts all blue but who cares. we learned how to fall. even more important, we learned not to be afraid to fall because its so much fun to get back up especially when you have your sister and your dog around to cheer on you and then push you right back down.

so after a couple hours when we had fallen enough times to be called the rainbow kids for the next two weeks we went home and had a tea and sugar feast...

if only you had known

how much i would miss you
every day

trying to run away from your absence i miss your presence even more
your eyes
your mystery


WHY?



I loved you so

would you have...?

why didnt i

why didnt you

and what does it matter now

if i had known
and if you had, too

well maybe ill learn now
to follow my own rules
never go for sth I dont really want...
or actually, that i dont need at all

and at last, that if I want green, and have always wanted green, then stop going for blue for liliths sake...

you are always in my mind
i carry you with me
you know how far we ve gone?

i see you in every raven i cross paths with
i love ravens
they take my breath away
they look a lot like you

you are here, there and
everywhere

and yes i loved you
and yes it was all my mistake

and yes i am oh so sorry

only hoping to meet again
at the end of time

just so i could get things clear and the truth restored

and tell you
that yes i loved you
and yes it was all my mistake
and yes i am oh so sorry




if only i had not been so blind and stupid
but at least, i m learning...

alaska

is a state of mind

kisses to all

weeping willow tree by Monika Arnett

In the midst of an enchanted, crystal forest
lies my soul,
beneath a weeping willow
tree.
On the shadowed side of this
mystical haven,
heart beats as thunder warns of a
raging storm!
Yesterday went well in deeds, but
silence
fell upon me...
words could not express these
lonesome thoughts.
I closed my eyes to shut the doors of reality.
Must you always need to understand me;
shan't I keep a bit of mystery for my sake?
These eyes plead,
as I look up to you
for such moments of
peace and tranquility.
Tears have fallen to the earth--
drops that glisten on blades of grass,
even in the dark of night;
stars shine brighter in my sight!
Today, I remember sharing my life
with you;
Vows of love and friendship, forever
spoken;
and now,
I lie alone beneath a
weeping willow tree.
Tommorrow, I shall walk alongside a
never-ending creek.

stress

the karins are gone

MY karins are gone
MY karin is gone
can't bring her back.
off she went and killed herself
why, oh, why, she wouldnt tell

well ok the one whose last two attempts to kill herself with valium have failed, that one wants me back. she said we never broke up really now, did we?

well i don't know

one day you make plans and the next you don't know me

and we never broke up?
i thought you ended it

how can i trust again?

would be a fool now wouldn't I ?

for the third time?

isn't it a tiny weeny bit too much?

I ain't going to peru

I'm goin home

give me time

let me think about it

let me think things over

let me mourn
i lost my closest friend
that i loved

i used to love you too

do i still love you?

can't tell right now

how does that feel?

it's for real

maybe i find my trust again

maybe i won't

maybe you'll change your mind till then

not the patient kind, are you?

Maroon 5 Lyrics
Makes Me Wonder Lyrics

geschenke suchen


ich habe dieses jahr keine lust dazu, zu suchen oder zu basteln oder was auch immer. aber die leute die ich liebe verdienen was mehr als meine leere.

zum glück hab ich die lösung gefunden. schenke CDs, die ich mag. klein, es bleibt lange, und die leute haben was wirklich von dir, weil unsere lieblingsmusik in einer weise unsere seele widerspiegelt.

nur meine ist im moment etwas zerstückelt, hier und dort, überall und nirgendwo, versuche ihr nachzurennen, aber wohin? muss sie erst wieder einfangen, zusammenkleben. zwei grosse stücke kann ich nicht zurückholen. in liebe, hoffnung und glauben sollten sie nachwachsen